|This lady and less fancy ones make me cry.|
But, we’ve been married 14 months and this year has not reaped the blessings that would make me feel comfortable to raise a child in. It is not quite time. Now there are many reasons why I don’t openly talk about this desire. First of all there are so many other things in this life that I long for that go beyond motherhood. And I didn’t marry Mark just so he could hurry up and knock me up. I didn’t get married to have babies. My marriage is important to me and it is the biggest blessing in my life. My husband and our marriage will always be the best thing that happened to me (next to Jesus), even after babies. I always want my priorities to be (in this exact order) Jesus-Mark-(children)-Parents-Siblings-other friends and family. I don’t ever want to the convey to the world that marriage is fun and lovey dovey for a couple months or a year and then you have kids and the kids are fun, and your spouse goes on the back burner into the roommate zone. I have loved (almost) every second of being married to Mark; I am not lonely or unsatisfied. So I don’t want speak out loud about my desire to have a baby because I don’t want that desire to undermine my love and commitment to Mark. I don’t want to be a (stereo)typical Christian couple that gets married and then squirts out a couple of kids right away. And I’m not quite sure I buy the idea that if you’re a Christian married couple it is your responsibility to have children.
|This creeps a lot of people out but I love it!|
|Looking for pics sure made that clock seem louder!|