|Don't worry. I got this. I don't need your help.
I have felt that way. I feel that way.
And it is incredibly frustrating. I want to scream. I want to shake the stubborn ignorance out of people. I want to throw in the towel and I want to give up. I don’t really care about this person’s life, this person’s soul.
Because if you haven’t figured it out yet. The rescue I have presented is rescue via Jesus. And I do care about this person. Because Christ compels me to care about them. My flesh is not liking this discipleship thing. Because it takes so much time, energy, emotion, strength and resources and there are no tangible results. Can you disciple someone who doesn’t really want to be discipled anyway? Maybe I should call it something else.
|Sometimes rescue is scary.
Banging my head against a holy wall? .....Definitely what it feels like but not quite right either.
Evangelism/preaching? .....Closer, but not quite there.
Obedience. There it is, I think that’s the one.
I am obeying God’s call. I am doing what He told me to. And sometimes it really sucks. I have been called to love and guide, mentor/disciple, admonish, teach etc etc etc. I know I have been called to do this on a personal level for this season of my life. I know it is preparing me for something more. But I tend to forget who is really in control. I am planting a seed. I am obeying. I must trust my Lord to make the seed grow. I don’t know what the hell I’m doing, but God does. So someone please remind to stop expecting my own outcomes and wait for God’s.
But still it is perplexing when it seems that there are people out there who want to fail. Who refuse to grow. Who refuse to be rescued. Who choose failure. Whether it’s a believer refusing to go deeper or an unbeliever knowing the Truth and refusing Jesus anyway. We have all met those people, who seem content to keep repeating the same mistakes over and over, living the same stagnant life and dwelling in the status quo of their own muck. But why? I have poured truth and light into someone and all I see in return is rebellion and a return to old ways. I have given Godly advice on how to seek Christ and better a life, just to see it thrown aside as an unwelcome perspective. I have presented the irresistible Gospel of Christ to those whose hearts have been pierced, when they are broken and their options are scarce. When rock bottom is all they know and they need a Savior. And they still resist.
Why do they resist? When they have all the info, when they know (and they really do know) that Jesus Christ can change their life. When taking godly advice can save them from future pain and heartache why do they keep resisting when they know Jesus is the ONLY WAY?
I’ll tell you why. People are lazy. They are selfish and they are scared. And they hate change. People can be residing in a swamp filled with fetid smelling goop. They can be up to their chins in their own excrement with the flies nibbling at their eyelids and if offered a way out they would stay. Because they are comfortable. They are afraid of washing off the shit, swatting the flies away and moving on to a new stage. Because they’ve grown accustomed to the smell of feces and they kind of like it. As crappy as life may be, more often then not, people are unwilling to risk that change could actually be crappier.
|He really does.