|I Yam, what I Yam! Deal with it!|
Lady Gaga tells us that we were born this way, but I’m calling BS on this and the whole topic of predisposed rudeness. I too used to fall prey to my personality, but I have been regenerated.
I used to stand by this credo of inherent personality. I was and am passionate about loving others. I have always had the capacity for empathy and the ability to feel the pain of others. I was passionate about what I believed and what I wanted to do in the world, but I thought this passion transferred to all aspects of my life and was an excuse for flaws within myself. Because of my “sensitive, passionate nature” I got upset/angry easily and could win awards for my dramatic, theatrical displays of emotion. I said it was simply a part of who I am and people could accept me for who I am, or not. The truth was I grew up in a home where yelling was an accepted way to express yourself and I had learned the same route, albeit I’m pretty sure I took it up a notch.
|Pretty much what I used to look like|
The first thing Mark tried to teach me was that emotions are not reliable- they change with the winds so I shouldn’t rely on them to make judgements or to control my actions. He said I didn’t have to act out my emotions and could control my moods. That was all well and good to know but I felt very much controlled by my emotions. My mood was most times determined by the grief I felt for my mother and I didn’t think I had the ability to change.
At the time I had been a Christian for years, but I was confused and doubting. I hadn’t gone to church in months and my prayer life was usually just another burst of emotions pleading with God. And the Bible, ha! That was just a book of anecdotes and couldn’t possibly help me. At this time, Mark encouraged me to deepen my spirituality and to draw close to Christ. And in fact, we did this together. We recommitted our lives to Christ and fervently pursued intimacy with Him. April- which is the month we chose to marry- was also the month of our recommitment to Jesus (a renewal of our wedding vows to Jesus). April is also a time of live springing forth, rebirth, and new creations.
1Therefore if any person is [ingrafted] in Christ (the Messiah) he is a new creation (a new creature altogether); the old [previous moral and spiritual condition] has passed away. Behold, the fresh and new has come! 2 Corinthians 5:17 (Amplified Bible)
|New Creations. And my favorite flowers.|
Do you think there are things about us that are unchangeable? Have you been transformed? With Christ in your life, do you feel like a new creation?